This is a very touching
write-up from a man grieved by the death of the love of his life and how
he is trying to start afresh a life without her but only his son. The story of
a young widowed father opening up about living with loss.
The eighty-five-year-old
driver who killed my wife, Desreen, was jailed today for eighteen months for
causing her death by dangerous driving. He was also banned from driving for
life. I suspect he, his family and friends are feeling really quite dreadful right
now, and, for what it’s worth, mine and I aren't exactly celebrating either.
You see, I’ve had time to
think since attending the trial and I’ve realised that you can punish a crime
but you can’t transfer pain. Any suffering caused to the defendant as a result
of his sentencing could in no way take away mine. I’ve since learned that,
having suffered so much myself, I genuinely wish no hurt on any other person
and I never wished a prison sentence on the driver, either.
In fact, I wasn’t even going
to mention the sentencing on my blog at all. But then I reminded myself that
justice for Desreen is best served not by a prison sentence but by trying to
prevent similar unnecessary deaths from happening again in future. I keep
hearing people say that they know someone who should probably give up driving
but that they don’t know how to raise the issue with them. Well maybe I can
help with that.
Tell them that the judge who
sentenced the driver today said, ‘An elderly driver who knows, or should
acknowledge, that he or she is losing his or her faculties is no less a danger
than a drunken driver who knows the same.’
Tell them that the judge also
explained that the defendant’s ‘lifetime of blameless driving is of no comfort
to the Brooks-Dutton family,’ (and I assure you it really isn’t).
Tell them that the detective
sergeant in charge of the prosecution said, ‘It is important for motorists to
regularly monitor their driver behaviour and that of their elderly relatives to
ensure that the roads are safe for all road users.’
Tell them that the once
‘blameless’ elderly driver suffered pedal confusion, which caused his car to be
travelling at an average of fifty-four miles per hour in a twenty zone when he
struck and killed my wife.
Tell them that the impact of
this pedal confusion caused one of her shoes to fly off her feet as his
speeding car hit her on the pavement where she was walking blamelessly with our
then two-year-old son and me. Tell them that I had to keep looking at that shoe
in the street on the night of her death and in photographs over the course of
the subsequent trial.
Tell them that this is the
last photo ever taken of my wife with our son together. Tell them that the
paramedics on the scene later that evening had to cut off the jumper she is
pictured wearing in order to be able to perform CPR on the pavement where she
lay dying.
Tell them that what happened
was almost even more catastrophic and that the car that killed my wife almost
killed our son too. Tell them that the collision investigator found a piece of
the pushchair he is pictured in here in the street after the car skimmed it
before mowing down his mother.
Tell them that the day after
my wife was killed my son was upset that he couldn’t find his scooter. Tell
them that’s because his scooter was found in the wreckage too.
Tell them that every time I
look at my favourite picture of my wife and me together I get upset as I
imagine how I lost the hat I am pictured wearing on the night of her death.
Tell them that I’ve concluded that I must have inadvertently thrown it into the
street as I pulled at my own hair through fear that she was going to die.
Tell them they won’t be the
only people who have to deal with the consequences of any potential injury or
fatality that they might cause. Tell them the impact will be felt by more
people than they can imagine including their own family and friends.
Tell them that the
two-year-old boy who lost his mummy is now four and is still so angry and upset
that she can’t come back. Tell them that he has suffered immeasurably from the
trauma of that night. Show them this picture and tell them that this is him
pictured with his beautiful mummy on his second birthday – the last one they
would ever spend together.
Tell them that at thirty-one
years old I was the happiest man alive when I married the love of my life. Tell
them that I was utterly bereft when I lost her at thirty-three. Tell them I’ve
thirty-five now and depressed. Tell them that I put a good face on but that the
truth is that things haven’t really got much easier. Tell them from me how hard
it is to be a bereaved single parent.
Tell them that once disaster
strikes no wishing the tables could be turned will help. Tell them that wanting
to switch places with the young person killed will make no difference to those
who survive.
Tell them that you understand
that they may want to stay mobile but remind them of what’s at risk.
Tell them any of these things
you like; print this blog post off, email it on, share it online and let it
speak for itself.
Tell me you’ll help prevent
this happening again, though.
Just tell me that so that one
day I can tell my son that his mother’s death wasn’t completely in vain.
Reference: lifeasawidower
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